Weight update

I went to the gym Friday night and weighed. Down about 3 pounds from my last update. I'm now at 249.5. Still terrible but better than 252.5.

Food Sadness

I am sitting here tonight feeling sad and hurting because of food. i have not taken the steps i have needed to in order to get healthier and to feel better. i want to lose weight and i look at pictures of women that i would love to have the body of and think "what i wouldn't give for her body." but I've now realized it isn't a matter of what i wouldn't give...it's what i won't give UP that is the problem. maybe now that i have realized this, I'll be able to give up. i know it is the only way things are ever going to change for me.